IM BACK!!!

IM BACK!

I know I just kind of disappeared off the beautiful earth...

Ive been busy....

Being mostly angry, briefly quite happy, occasionally excited, momentarily proud, constantly afraid, extremely disillusioned , and probably fatter too!

Im going through a strange time.

It is certainly an unsettling time.

Its not all bright and fluffy and magickal.
It doesnt make me feel empowered or at peace.

Its deep stuff.

I think what is happening here is that I am dealing with my "ghosts" so to speak.

My soul feels raw and open.

What is coming at me feels prickly and uncomfortable.
It is my darker side.

Dark side , you ask?

Yup, we all have one.

Problem about it though is that through the whole christian theory of

dark = bad = satan

Light = Good = God

we have not been able to emrace this side of ourselves.

I believe that many have had the courage and the experience of going through this spiritual learning of light meets dark.

Im not unique in this respect.

Im sure many a Book of Shadows secretly hold documentation of such occurences.

It can be a very draining time as all the things you have resisted in the past come at you like gaping wounds in need of disinfection.

The information you receive has to be felt all over again.

It has to be "played out", relived and correctly placed in my mind this time....

Its very necessary to be going through this.

I fear I have wasted too much time here already, perhaps this is when this type of thing happens.

It could be a "wake up call" of sorts.

I feel a definite sense of excitement through it all though.

A kind of knowing that Im going to have scored some brownie points with the universe or something.

Like on face book, when you send a gift application to more and more friends they unlock more exciting ones each time!

I think Im going to be "unlocking" some nice stuff !

I believe in divine timing